This Time By Melanie C

Ive been practicing all day
now the words I meant to say are gone
I promised that I wouldnt cry
told myself I had to try and hold on
the truth, I lied
I hate myself inside
and why
I played the game and paid the price
I never look back
I never cry never try to wonder why
Ill be on my own
and never doubt, never shout or wonder how
Ill never be lonely until
this time, this time, this time
this time I will

Ive been wide awake all night
theres no sign of sleep inside my mind
the headlight shadows scan my wall
I convince myself youll call in time
the truth, I lied
the girl in me has died
and why
I played the game and paid the price
I never look back...
this time i will be yours completely
this time ill make sure you dont hate me
this time I know, this time I can and this time I will
I never look back...
Ive been practicing all day
now the words I meant to say are gone